Four months and missing Jonathan David

Today is exactly 4 months since Jonathan David was born and entered eternity. We miss him dearly and have remembered him a lot today. I've been recently having lots of "flash backs" of specific moments during the pregnancy and of our few hours together. A particular memory will just suddenly appear in my mind, even if I'm not thinking about him at the time. He is just so part of us and always will be. Thank God we are being restored and strengthened but we still carry with us a sadness which we believe will always be part of our lives.

It brings us much comfort to remember that he is very alive and completely healed in heaven. We often try to imagine what he is doing and sometimes wonder what he is like, if he is growing up into a little boy as he would be on earth, etc. To imagine what it will be like to meet him again always brings tears to my eyes... wow, it's going to be amazing, I'm going to run to him and hold him so tight! We will then have eternity to love and enjoy each other! But until then, we have a purpose to fulfill on earth and we hope to do that well, glorifying God and making Jonathan David proud.

It's also amazing to see how our faith has grown through this journey. Death now is so much more real than it ever was. We now understand more than ever why trusting Jesus is truly amazing and a gift. It is because of His life that we can confidently place our hope that our son is well and that we will be reunited with him. Thank you Lord for the privilege to know you and that because of our son's life, we are now more focused on heaven.

Jonathan David, we know that many are remembering and missing you today too. Here is an e-mail that I received from Kristen for you:


Dear Little Jonathan David,

Today you would have been four months old! How big you would be getting, smiling and cooing and developing quite a little personality. We miss you very much, but we are so blessed to have gotten the chance to meet you. How precious your little life is to your parents and to all of us! Your parents fought hard to keep you with us as long as possible, but now you are with Jesus and we know he is taking great care of you.

Lots of love,
Kristen


We love you so much son, can't wait to be with you again!